monday night football.

realizing
some qualities of my soul i call
a banana split.

straight
up the seventy-one, about
fifty minutes.

tonight
i drove to joplin, missouri
searching for janis.

– – – – –
alone.

it’s not when i’m
in the middle
of the forest
by myself that
i feel isolation.

it’s when i’m
in the middle
of a group
and can’t find
the relation.

alone.
– – – – –

tonight
i felt like some foreign wacked-
out celebrity.

straight
into this bar where every eye
incarcerated me.

realizing
what’s it’s like to sell
my heart.