wednesday night blues.

realizing
the time invested. never been
better.

straight
to the point. not knowing my
future.

tonight
dan called. sad. and said there’s no
job for you.

– – – – –
news.

sometimes you get an email. or phone call. and
at the time. it doesn’t mean anything. at all. then
somewhere down the road. in comes the storm.
like you never imagined. kind of blind-sided. and
you realize. what is real. why you’ve gone through.
what you never thought you’d. feel. like you’re moving

slower. without control. and everything is gaining. and
all you have left. is questioning. with messed-up answers.
but you know what you have to do. because of what you’ve
learned the first time. don’t know about you. but anxiety is a
curse of mine. and i’m fine with it. it just hurts sometimes. shit.
everything happens for a reason.

news.
– – – – –

tonight
the questions were lingering
constantly.

straight
to the front of my mind. sitting there
so bluntly.

realizing
there’s a time for
everything.